Digging in the Ruins

New Life Story Seeds # 13

Dear Friends,

It's been a rough spring, with many ups and downs on the health front.  Nothing is the way I had planned, and time and life seem to move on whether we're ready or not.  After a cold, rainy spring, we're in deep summer here in New York.

Since I'm in a break between semesters, I've been playing with watercolors and a new digital camera.  I've also been exploring the delicious Life Journal software, finding it to have so many more features and applications than I had originally thought.

The writer's coffee mug has just been "born," and is now available.  You can take a peek at it at:
http://www.newlifestories.com/

I have just begun to work on some changes and new features for the website.  They should be up in a few days, including the first pictures from this amateur photographer.

A warm welcome to many new subscribers, for a total of almost 500.  One of the joys of writing this newsletter has been the feedback, friendships, and correspondence with readers.  I deeply appreciate the inquiries about my health and requests for the next newsletter.  It's growing primarily by forwarding and word-of-mouth, and it's nice to know it's missed when it doesn't get published.  Keep those emails coming!  And for those of you who keep asking, yes, a book is coming soon, with more in the works.

Wishing you wonderful new life stories, time to be with the ones you love, and all the things your heart most desires. Oh, and don't forget to smell the delphiniums.

Sincerely,

Ellen Moore

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In This Issue:
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A Thoughtful Quotation Juicy Questions Hearth and Soul What If...? Books/Links/Resources

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A Thoughtful Quotation

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"Help us to be the always hopeful gardeners of the spirit who know that without darkness nothing comes to birth as without light nothing flowers."

May Sarton,  Journal of a Solitude

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Juicy Questions

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What is the state of your garden?

What tools help you cultivate your garden of the spirit?

What is the relationship of effort to harvest in your life?

In your world, what is the function of hope?

What nurtures hope for you?

What in your life is in the germination, incubation, or gestation process?

What do you crave when you're gestating?

What in your life is flourishing or preparing to flower?

What do you need in order to blossom?

What are the patterns of darkness and sunshine in your life?

To what extent can you see your life as whole, all-of-a- piece?

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Hearth and Soul

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Friday, March 17, 2000

I drag myself to the health club for an appointment with the senior master so he can evaluate my energy flow.  It's a demonstration to allow me to decide if I think these kinds of treatments could help me.

Jamie is waiting for me at the desk, and she walks up the stairs with me, taking my elbow lightly, protectively, lovingly--as if escorting an elderly, much beloved grandmother. I'm not used to this. In spite of my illnesses, I like to think of myself as strong and vital, and now I'm surrounded by people who care for me the way I hovered over my grammie in her nineties. It's difficult for me to accept help, even when I need it, even when I feel safer with another person to steady me as I walk.

Taking off our shoes at the office door, we walk down the hallway where Dahn Woon sits in lotus posture on the floor of an empty room.  He has a young, serious face, but when he opens his eyes, they twinkle through his wire-rimmed glasses, and as he puts his hands together to give me a slight bow, he smiles.  He dismisses Jamie and waves me to the mat on the floor.  Sara comes to interpret. Dahn Woon talks about the meridians, tells me he looks for energy blockages, and asks if I have any questions. My neck aches from swiveling back and forth to look at first one, then the other, so I say "No."  Sara glides out, and I sink deeper into the mat, confident I'm in caring, skillful hands.

Dahn Woon closes his eyes and guides both hands in the air. Up and down, back again, over the entire length of my body. After several passes, he settles both hands on my right knee.

"Hurt here," he says, looking at me for confirmation.

"Yes," I nod.  I am amazed that he has found the most painful site on my body. His warm hands massage the knee and probe around it, then he works up and down both legs with increasingly deeper pressure.

Next, he presses lightly on points up and down my sternum. Searing pain takes my breath away.

"Energy block here," he says. I remember to breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth as he taught me, flaring my fingers like stars.  I wind up panting to deal with the knife-like sensations on my chest.  It feels as if he's drilling through bone.

"Pant and blow, pant and blow," I tell myself, remembering natural childbirth coaching from thirty years ago. This is so much more painful, but I have a sudden desire to giggle as I think of the ridiculousness of this situation.  What kind of salesmanship is this?  Any sensible person would run.  Who would sign up to pay good money for more of this torture?

"Is that my stomach meridian?" I ask.

"Don't worry," he says.  "Don't think about it. Just relax." I let go of the question, remembering that it is possible to think too much and that I often do so.  I decide to offer up my curiosity and relentlessly ubiquitous mind in the service of healing, and I remind myself that not everything needs analyzing. A constant search for understanding can be a defense against feeling, against being real, against being simple, against simply being.  That's how it has worked for me.

After kneading my neck and head, Dahn Woon lays the flat of his hand over those painful spots on my chest. I am instantly plunged into the deepest sadness I can imagine.

"Sad," I say.

"Yes," he says. "Heart.  Let it come."

Tears roll down my cheeks into my ears.  Suddenly, I am three years old, and I recall a silly little verse my grandfather used to recite to me when I cried.  Something about "Tears in your ears, Shakespeare." I remember his warmth and his love and think how much I miss him, how much he taught me, what a role model he has been for my life.  In my mind's ear, I hear the lullaby he sang as he rocked us to sleep.

"Go to sleep my little baby, Go to sleep and don't you cry." These words and only these words repeated over and over to the old hymn tune, "Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing."  I listen to his rich baritone and re-experience the pain of losing him.  It is intense.

I happen to subscribe to the philosophy that the body stores emotional, as well as physical pain in its tissues.  This is not the first such experience I've had with body work, but it's yet another demonstration of emotional release when the body's armoring is challenged.

Jamie and Sara are waiting for me in the hall.  They see my tears and squeeze me tight, one on either side of me.

"A sandwich," I say, and the three of us laugh.

Jamie, Sara, Dahn Woon, and I sit around a small table as DahnWoon gives me his findings, illustrating with the black- painted meridians on a bronze statue. "Your sadness here," he says, hand on his chest.  "In heart chakra.  Sadness makes lungs bad.  Lungs make liver bad.  Liver makes stomach bad. Blocked stomach meridian makes fat."

We talk about a plan for a year-long series of treatments, healing massage, and lessons in dahn, and ki gong. I'd also have access to a variety of other classes and facilities during that time.  I would continue my daily swims, and begin a workout program with the weight machines.

Sara does most of the talking, tells me about their mission to help people to the highest level of physical, emotional, and spiritual development possible.  No one at the spa works on commission, she says.  They've dedicated their lives to helping people, and it gives them great joy to see people become healthier.  She tells me her own near-death and recovery story, tells me about some of the other members who've had their lives transformed by the training and treatments. It's a way of life they're talking about, a spiritual quest.  I hear variants of the phrases, "The Creator," and "The kingdom of heaven is within you."  That sounds familiar.

There's always that cynical voice in the back of my head telling me they just want my money, that this must be some kind of cult, that I'm treading on air again, that the only reason I'm feeling so good right now is that I'm just relieved that the excruciating pain has stopped.  I lower the volume on that voice and tell it I'm already aware of all those possibilities, thank you. That cautious part of me just wants to keep me safe.

I seldom walk into things blindly or impulsively, and my inner radar tells me these people are sincere. They have a certain indefinable something I don't have.  I'm willing to learn and they're willing to teach me.  I've sped down lots of blind alleys before, but my gut tells me this isn't one. I've been here every day for several weeks, and already a new life story has begun to write itself.

The day I wrote that first check for the membership, I walked into the dressing room grumbling, "This club had better change my life."  A Greek-like chorus of women in various states of undress smiled knowingly and chanted in unison: "Don't worry, it will."

Saturday, March 25, 2000

I've never felt sicker in my life. All week, I can scarcely lift my head off the pillow, can barely navigate to the bathroom, don't feel hungry, drink quart after quart of water.  Can't sleep because I can't breathe. Horrible, throbbing headache, fever, achiness, deep coughing, swollen lymph glands. Can't read, can't write, don't even want to listen to music, and the mere thought of daytime television brings on waves of nausea.

Finally I feel a little better. When Sara calls, she is alarmed by the croak that has replaced my voice.

"Jamie's right here with me," she says.  She tells me they are concerned about me since I hadn't been to the spa for several days, and they were afraid Dahn Woon's treatment had led to a cleansing crisis.

"It can be like turning on a faucet," says Sara.

Possibly, I say, but I tell them about another program I've been on that would cause the same kinds of reactions, as well.  After seven weeks of following that almost-impossible eating plan (only raw vegetables, raw vegetable juices, sprouts, nuts, seeds, wheat grass juice, fresh fruit, and gallons of water), I seem to be experiencing an "aggravation," a stirring up of old symptoms and a cleansing period in which the body rids itself of the accumulated toxins that have made me sick for so long.  I'm told these "cleanses" are a sign of progress.

Jamie and Sara seem relieved to hear that I'm basically all right, and that I won't run away from the difficult parts of the healing process.

"We'll pray for you," says Sara as we say goodbye.

Wednesday, April 12, 2000

I can't believe this!  Can this really be true?  I feel so much better.  I pinch myself, not daring to believe that I really feel this good or that this improvement can continue. Yes, pain still courses throughout my body, but less.  Yes, I am tired, but it's not that bone-weary, nigh-unto-death exhaustion. Several times throughout the day, I say to myself, "I'm just sitting in this chair, not sitting in this chair thinking about how much I hurt." For years, pain and exhaustion have dominated most of my waking hours, overwhelmed me, taken over my interactions with the world, pinned me helpless to the ground.

I notice my walk.  Lighter, freer. As I teach, I stand part of the time instead of sitting. When I have a conversation in the hallway, I stand for a few minutes without looking around for a chair. I feel my humor returning.  I feel almost vigorous, exuberant, and certainly euphoric.  A kind of exhilaration I haven't felt in years. The world looks like an entirely different place.  It is as if I see with new eyes. Colors seem brighter, and I can connect with people on a deeper level, no longer avoiding them, no longer lowering my eyes and mumbling a quick retreat.

All my hard work is paying off, and my new motto is "Nothing tastes better than getting well."  I crave healthy foods, and when I do stray from the program, the supposed treat doesn't taste nearly as good as I thought it would, and I eat only a bite or two before leaving the rest on the plate. I get to the health club as often as I can, and I'm settling into a routine of massages, treatments, and classes.

Now that my tissues are saturated with water, I'm thirstier, so I crave water. I knew that once my health condition began to move, the weight issue would resolve itself, and sure enough, in seven weeks, I'm almost 20 pounds lighter without any effort or thought in that direction.  Still a long way to go, but it's a beginning.

The pain and fatigue have made me incredibly self-centered, and I'm still that way, but can begin to think about other things besides myself and my pain.  My mind opens and I feel so much more creative. I want to paint, draw, sew. I have thoughts of traveling again, dancing, hiking, gardening, undertaking new projects, getting the dog I've longed for, even clearing out all the accumulated clutter in the house and garage. I can't do any of these things yet, but just thinking about them represents an enormous change. Rumblings of a seismic shift.

Hope. I have hope for the future, hope for a new life.  I think I can do this.  I know I can do this.

Thursday, April 20, 2000

Pain everywhere.  Full body spasms after sitting in that awful chair for hours.  Cascades of pain.  I struggled to smile and keep sitting there, but it was a retirement luncheon, and an awkward tiptoeing out during "the speech" might have caused hurt feelings.  It was essentially a life review, an important one, a long one.  A summing up of a career of helping others, and a sacred and respectful tribute from family, friends, and long-time colleagues.

Crawled home to throw myself into bed for the rest of the day.  Once again, I took care of everyone else but me.  When will I ever learn?

Saturday, April 22, 2000

It's the roller coaster again.  Pain and well-being, energy and fatigue.  Highs and lows with little apparent control on my part.

What if I could actually regain "normal" energy and become "my old self" again, and do all the things my soul wants and needs to do?  Is this even possible?

I will never know whether healing is possible unless I reach for solutions.  I will have to risk failure and disappointment in order to allow the possibility of improvement. I must face reality, whatever it is.  But there's no ultimate reality, since it keeps changing and has many levels and layers to it.  Everything keeps shifting. I'm "standing on fishes," as Rilke says, and I will accept that condition, without trying to hold on to any thing or idea that appears solid.  I will, I shall keep reaching to the end.  What is that line from Tennyson's Ulysses?  "To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield."  I will keep going.  I love and respect that in myself.

Friday, April 21, 2000

I don't know if I really believe in all this esoteric stuff about energy blockages, chakras, and meridians, but nothing else has worked, and I've tried almost everything.  I suppose I resonate with that story about the philosopher, Alfred North Whitehead.  When his neighbor came by to find him tacking a horseshoe above the entrance to his house, he chided him: "Surely, Alfred, you don't believe in such superstition."

"Of course not," he replied.  "But I understand it works whether you believe it or not."

Monday, May 8, 2000

Consuela must have loved this house and yard--at least in the beginning. I can tell from the house journals she left behind:  two small leatherette notebooks and a thick blank book bound in red cloth. Not all the entries have dates, and there's a jumble of yellowed newspaper clippings and advertisements, recipes for kasha varnishkas and potato latkes, notes to call for stump grinding and leaky faucet repair. The first book begins with commentaries from both her and Emilio written beside carefully cut and pasted ads from the "Houses for Sale" section of the Sunday Times. They lived in the city then, and drove out to the suburbs on weekends.

In the red book, she made copious entries in both Spanish and English about seeds and fertilizer. There is a diagram for a huge garden.  Kale and collards at one end, tomatoes, basil, and pole beans at the other.  Notes about planting, thinning, pruning.  Lists of costs for garden supplies.  An account of rescuing starving kittens from an abandoned building.  Names and descriptions for various squirrels and raccoons that frequented the yard--Red, Fuzzy, Ringtail, Bright Eyes.

"Emilio cut the lawn on June 10," reads one entry.  A younger and more energetic Emilio than the one I know.

Today there is no lawn, only jungle.  It's a ruin. Consuela's azaleas have all died, her beloved roses tangle the sidewalks, and her grape vines have sprawled wild to cover the house and most of this half acre.  I can't find a trace of the apple, cherry, peach, apricot, and fig trees she wrote about nurturing so carefully. When I ask Emilio about the fruit trees, he says he doesn't remember, but he shakes his head sadly.

"Never enough sunshine," he says.  I can't be sure if he's talking about the yard, the house, or the marriage.  In the 18 years since Consuela left, nature has obliterated most of its memory of her.

Saturday, July 29, 2000

So many plans, and I've been able to bring none of them to fruition.  In March, I thought I felt well enough to attempt some long-overdue dental work. I spent most of the spring curled up in a ball from the after-effects of a protracted series of dental "adventures."  Finally the source of the mysterious pain was found and corrected after many long trips back and forth.

"How's the raw foods program going?" asks a friend.

"Are you kidding?" I say.  "I'm on the mashed potato diet now."

"Oh, what can you eat on that plan?"

"Mashed potatoes."

"That's all?" she says.

That's all I could tolerate for weeks and weeks.  Mashed potatoes and a little pasta.  Couldn't even drink water without setting off waves of pain.  Not recommended.  Not recommended at all.

I had tremendous success on the raw foods program.  Seven weeks of very hard work gave me a week and a half of definite improvement, but I seem unable to stay on the program now.  Maybe my body is craving protein; maybe I need a new plan.  At least I now have hope that improvement is possible. After all the dental work, I've finally arrived back up to square one, and am desperately happy to be there.

The health club and the people there have become both community and family.  During the dental disasters, I was so sick I couldn't even get there often, but now I try to go every day.  If I'm too tired to swim, work out, or take a class, I go just to sit in the hot tub or lie on the warm granite in the Silent Room. It's the best money I've ever spent.

There's a constant battle to find time to write between trips to the grocery store, classes, clients, groups, naps, exhaustion.  The idea of fixing up the porch for a writer's retreat--a "white room"--has long been abandoned after I spent so much money at the health club.  Birds fly in and out of the porch, and broken glass still litters a corner of the patio.  I haven't yet found a contractor willing to take on the job for a reasonable price.  I had wanted to install window boxes and shutters on the front of the house, clear out dead trees and brush from the yard, reorganize the kitchen, do something about the poison ivy.  I had wanted to have a garden this year, or at least plant a few perennials. I keep hoping.

When I think I can't stand to look at it another minute, I get delirious urges to rip down all of Consuela's gold, gray, and brown cabbage-rose wallpaper.  Some days I dream of a bigger, sunnier house with a huge kitchen and no stairs.  Other days, I'm just grateful for the comfort of this cozy little home in the suburban wilds.  There's so much I want to do, and I have so little energy.  Still, I'm hopeful.

"Call the representatives of brute force," says Emilio. Yes, it's true.  Strong young workers could dig, plant, paint, chop, clear, renovate, and I could direct, point, and pay.  But on most days, even that kind of effort seems beyond either of us.

"What a couple of wrecks we are," laughs Emilio.  Yes, ruin is everywhere we look.  It's an ongoing battle against entropy, within and without.  Ultimately, it's a losing proposition.

In a burst of November energy, I began the Hearth and Soul column to document the process of renovating this house and restoring my singed soul.  At that time, I did not know the story would take a turn toward health issues.  But it's all one, I suppose.  To paraphrase the old song:  Soul bone's connected to the body bone.  I remind myself that it is never selfish or arrogant to reach for what I need.  Never. The dream of physical health is not a shallow goal; health will give me more energy to help others.

I'm beginning to learn that getting older is not for the cowardly.  That becomes clearer with every passing year, but there are compensations.  As Yeats said:

"An aged man is but a paltry thing, A tattered coat upon a stick, unless Soul clap its hands and sing, and louder sing For every tatter in its mortal dress."

So that becomes the most important task, to allow entropy to take its course and to seek syntropy of soul.  "Where there is ruin, there is hope of treasure," wrote Rumi.  I will excavate the ruins of my life--the sorrows, the losses, the excesses. If I have no marigolds to plant, I will dig in the garden of the spirit, and I will cherish both the darkness and the sunshine. I will find the will and the ways to create a simpler life.  At times, I will retreat; at other times, I will advance. When the way before me is blocked, I will create new paths where none exist. Maybe next week. Maybe tomorrow.

Tomorrow is another day.

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What If...?

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What if you just kept on writing, telling those stories from deep inside you, no matter what?

What if you launched your words like shooting stars into the dark and welcomed rejection as proof you're sailing toward your dreams?

And what if you finally allowed yourself to become the writer your soul always believed you could be?

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I've struggled with these three questions for several months now, and I've designed a coffee mug with the text above.  As I drink, the cup reminds me of my purpose in life and of the importance of perseverance.  Reminds me that rejection means progress, that the gift of rejection says only "Move on. Ask again."  That rejection frees me up for a fresh start. That rejection is an open door on the way to reaching my goals.  I am inspired with every sip.

Flowing black script wraps around white porcelain.  It's a generous 15 ounce size, and it's dishwasher safe.  Perfect for coffee, tea, hot cocoa, pencils, or paintbrushes.  Great for gifts because you can order them from the web and have them sent directly to your friends.  Simple, elegant, no effort.  Brilliant, huh?

And don't forget to order a mug for yourself.  They're available only on the New Life Stories website, where you can see the script and a picture of the mug.  (Same text available on mouse pads and Tee-shirts).

http://www.newlifestories.com/Gifts.html

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Books/Links/Resources

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WALKING A SACRED PATH: REDISCOVERING THE LABYRINTH AS A SPIRITUAL TOOL (Berkley Publishing Group, 1996) Lauren Artress of San Francisco's Grace Cathedral has written a beautifully inspiring book about the meaning, uses, and history of labyrinths.  She focuses on the seeds of spiritual hunger, rediscovery of the divine within, and the labyrinth as a blueprint for transformation. http://bn.bfast.com/booklink/click?sourceid=1342882&ISBN=1573225479

THE WRITER'S JOURNEY:  MYTHIC STRUCTURE FOR WRITERS If writing is your call to adventure, or if you're a fan of either Joseph Campbell or Carl Jung, you'll want this second edition of Christopher Vogler's book.  You'll be able to explore the hero's journey as it relates to your own life, and also use the book to map out your fiction, tighten up story lines, and resolve structural issues. http://shop.barnesandnoble.com/OopBooks/UsedBook.asp? sourceid=1342882&author=Christopher+Vogler&ean=2770587287559

THE PROCRASTINATOR'S WAY "Many self-help books for writers continue to change lives for the better," writes Meisha Rosenberg at Salon.com, but she goes on to note the ways writing books can actually hinder writers.  She admits her own addiction to self-help books, outlines the problem for writers, and offers a paradoxical prescription.  Great food for thought, and while you're there at Salon, you can explore other articles about writers and writing. http://www.salon.com/books/feature/2000/05/26/self_help/index1.html

THE WRITE SOURCE The Write Source provides custom designed, individualized programs to meet your creative writing needs.  Their editing and publishing professionals can work with you by phone, fax, and email to help you grow as a writer, develop your craft, and bring your work to publication.  The Write Source Writers' Association provides classes, idea exchange, problem solving, networking, inspiration, and support.  As much or as little assistance as you'd like. http://www.prowlers.com/~thewritesource/

LIFE JOURNAL If you ever use your computer to journal, you'll love Life Journal software.  Created by a veteran journal keeper, Life Journal is now easier than ever to use.  Quotes and prompts pop up when you want them, and there's a dream journal to help you identify recurring themes and images and an interactive daily pulse to monitor your mood, health, energy, and stress levels.  Of course, you can search any entry in seconds by word, phrase, title, date, topic, or daily pulse.  I love the Life History Record where I can build my autography on a timeline and even add pictures from the new digital camera!  I've learned to integrate my own system with Life Journal, and I'm finding new journaling inspiration. If you mention code "EM115," you'll receive a discount from the already-reasonable price. http://www.lifejournal.com/

COFFEEHOUSE FOR WRITERS  Coffeehouse for Writers got the nod from Writer's Digest, with a listing as one of the 101 Best Web Sites for Writers.  Hang out with writers and take advantages of many resources, including online workshops. Feed your muse, perfect your craft, and nurture your creative side.  Great links and networking opportunities. http://www.coffeehouseforwriters.com/faqs.html

FICTION FIX NEWSLETTER The nuts and bolts of crafting better fiction--revealed! Essay contests, feature articles about the writing life, and much more.  Subscribe to the inspiring newsletter. http://members.tripod.com/fictionfix/

ARCHETYPES STORYTELLING CARDS I've just ordered two decks of the new storytelling cards, and can't wait for them to arrive! You can use these beautifully illustrated cards to develop situations, traits, and characters for games and stories.  You can also use them for divination, if you're so inclined.  I'm planning to explore my own conscious and unconscious paths, as well as those of my fictional characters. http://www.thecards.com/

DEENA METZGER "To follow story is to understand the  path of  healing. Each of our stories is a universe.  Each one of us is living a story.  To  discover its shape and essence is essential to soul making." To learn more about her Global Council of Elders, visit her website.  Her books include Writing for Your Life: A Guide and Companion to the Inner Worlds and The Woman Who Slept with Men to Take the War Out of Them. Remember the famous Tree Poster?  That's Deena with her arms stretched wide in triumph--survivor, force of nature, living archetype. http://www.memcore.com/deenametzger/

LETTERS FROM NEW ENGLAND Settle in for a visit with my long-time cyber pal Kay Richard and her delightful on-line journal. You'll feel as if you know her and you'll want to go back time and time again  Links and books and new ideas to explore. http://members.xoom.com/jrnlwtr/frontpage.htm You'll also want to read all ten of her new articles on writing and health at:
http://www.themestream.com/articles/50784.htm

THE JOURNAL STORE For a luscious array of journals of all styles and shapes, pens, inks, and journaling software, visit The Journal Store. http://www.thejournalstore.com/

AUTUMN COTTAGE DIARY Pour yourself a cup of Earl Grey and prepare for an enchanting stay with another long-time Internet friend, Roz Cawley at Autumn Cottage.  Tour her 1700's thatched-roofed home and gardens, luxuriate in the English countryside, and browse her collections of textiles, old books, and prints. Read her renovation diary and join the discussion group. http://www.delamici.demon.co.uk/ http://www.delamici.demon.co.uk/rozown/newme.html

ONE WOMAN'S WRITING RETREAT A great resource for writers, both male and female! Includes a series on e-publishing, interviews with writers, reviews, feature articles about the craft of writing, and helpful links.  In the writers' lounge, you can meet the guests, interact, learn from published authors and agents, and read excerpts from their work. http://www.prairieden.com/

SCHOOL OF HEALTH Learn the principles of healthy living with Cyndi Thomas, N. D.  As a naturopathic doctor, she teaches that the body will begin to heal itself when it is given the proper nutrients and the wrong influences are taken away.  On Dr. Thomas's website, you'll find articles on natural health and steps you can take today to align yourself with your body's innate self-healing abilities. Subscribe to her free newsletter and also check out "Vibrant Health," an on-line, weekly, wellness and weight management program, including menus, recipes, shopping lists, health tips, articles, personalized food plan, and free email counseling. This is one of the healthiest and best organized programs I've ever seen.  It's like having your own personal nutritionist at your side! Visit her website at:
http://www.schoolofhealth.com/

COACH PHILIP HUMBERT Dr. Philip Humbert is available for individual and group coaching.  Every serious athlete has a coach.  Is your success any less important?  There are numerous free tools and resources on his website, including a motivational screensaver.  His inspirational Tips newsletter is published weekly. Visit http://www.philiphumbert.com/ or send mailto:Coach@philiphumbert.com for a free initial consultation.

PAPER TIGER Can you find any file in your study within five seconds? Neither can I, in spite of numerous, supposedly well- organized filing cabinets, but I'm getting there.  Really! The software is a breeze to master.  It takes a little time to enter files into Paper Tiger, then it gets to work to organize everything you feed it. Next, I'm going to enter all my books so I'll be able to find them and not buy books I already have.  It's the next best thing to hiring an organizer swat team for a complete dig-out. http://www.thepapertiger.com/

BUTTERFLIES If you live in the Northern Hemisphere, summer is a good time to create a "butterfly zone." You can encourage many beautiful butterfly species to hang out in your yard and garden by growing flowers that supply the food and nectar they need. If you have a wildflower garden, alfalfa, clovers, Queen Anne's Lace, and teasel lure butterflies. Butterflies also love parsley, hollyhock, asters, daisies, zinnias, daylilies, bee balm, phlox, and lavender. You can increase the butterfly population in your yard if you provide the right kind of groundcovers, sheltered spots, and sources of water.  Learn more about attracting butterflies, and enjoy a beautifully illustrated butterfly journal at:
http://www.butterflies.com/

SPIRITUALITY AT WORK This community of professionals is concerned with exploring the practical, living connections between our spirituality and our daily work: with finding the links between who we are, what we do, and what we believe. (Also has papers on the meaning of spirituality at work, and how to implement it in our own location. http://www.spiritatwork.org/

MANY PATHS Many Paths has a vast library of links and information to be applied to individual spirituality in the work place. http://www.manypaths.com/

FREE ONLINE LIBRARY The Free Online Library e-zine presents a complete listing of the URLs of thousands of books available for free on the internet. You will also receive reviews of the best books on the world-wide web.  For a subscription, send a blank email to: mailto:freeonlinelibrary-subscribe@eGroups.com

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